I need to thank a new follower (thinkinkadia) for getting my juices flowing today about what I call myself or how I see myself. I have called myself an introvert because I have personality traits that most psychologists would deem introversion. I am solitary, quiet, prefer solo travel, solo type work, not keen on crowds, etc. However, I realize I’ve really never fit any particular label as defined by the dictionary. I like people, I like intelligent people. I like crowds with purpose. I can easily introduce myself to a stranger and carry on a conversation. Now the term “activist” has entered my vocabulary. It’s a new and strange word for my tongue to say. I never thought that I’d be an activist, a feminist, or even “political”. I’ve always been reluctant to put labels on others as well and now I can definitely characterize some public figures with unflattering labels. But I won’t, just as I will no longer put a label on me! I am a unique human. I am not the same woman I was when I was in my 20’s, 30’s 50’s or even before the election. Growth has been ongoing for me, I strive for growth mentally and emotionally constantly. I believe it behooves us as adults to continually question our world and see the truth. To continually question and grow. To travel outside our hometown and personal bubbles to experience new cultures to grow and learn tolerance.
Tonight I changed my Platinum Dragon site a bit. I hope to be able to express the conflict that I’m feeling in my heart and soul these days, to hopefully inspire others to speak out against injustice and tyranny. I changed my about page to reflect these thoughts, below are the paragraphs explaining why and how I’ve turned a new chapter in my life.
Since the election I lost my words, I have struggled with my conscience and the direction I wanted to take my writing but my thoughts have become so adamant about expressing themselves that my passion has been aroused about my country, our freedoms, and our world. I have never even discussed politics with anyone, family or friends, let alone strangers. I don’t discuss religion either. I believed the United States was founded on a solid foundation and although we disagreed on many things, we did agree on the what our founding fathers wanted for this country. I believed that we could overcome our differences, at least politically. I believed that we had processes in place that would not allow dictators or demagoguery to rise in power.
I know we have struggled through the years and century with equality for all, I felt we were making progress. How sadly disappointed and disillusioned I was. I have always given others the benefit of the doubt, I have always trusted too much, and now as in personal relationships, I have had my heartbroken in the American people who have been blindly misled by a scam artist and his flock. I had more faith in them than they deserved.
I have been growing into the Dragon for several years, never did I realize that the Dragon meant my voice was meant to roar even louder. I thought that I had to overcome my own personal demons. Now, I realize there are more important demons and evil that I have to overcome, more important reasons I have to speak out. More important reasons, that I cannot withdraw back into the timid person I used to be. Too much is at stake for us as a nation, and we as individuals, one voice at a time, one writer at a time. Speaking and writing our convictions can and will be heard.
Our founding fathers spoke out, Benjamin Franklin wrote his convictions, we must too. Remember history repeats itself. Don’t let it repeat the worst events of the world. Speak out with me. Be heard!